withered, tainted.

reverse.

2009-05-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

なむあみだぶつ、南無あみ陀ぶつ.

あれ数ふれば暁の

七つの時が
六つ鳴りて

残る一つが今生の
鐘の響の聞き納め
寂滅為楽と響くなり.

bubble trip.

2009-04-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

ok gonna update.
everything has beeen so crapppppy these few MONTHS.
angel is stealing food from me now.
locked up in e lab doing coursework.
na-behh.
everything so shitty.
dying of boredom.
~~~~
dance to the rythm of torturing.
~~~~
CB la giving up hope on almost everything.

2009-04-20T14:41:00.003+08:00

Beyond the Void.

2009-04-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

これは　始まりの物語。

伝えておこう
これだけは　君に

けして忘れてはいけないこと
けして失ってはいかないこと

どれだけ時が経ったとしても
例え埋もれてしまったとしても

それは　きえることも変わることもない

たった一つの真実は
永遠に在り続ける―

二つずつの
手足を持ち
それぞれに
５本の指

２本の足で
立って歩く

歌を歌う
神がいた

耳も尾を持ち
翼生やした人間を
妻に娶りし神

やがて人間は身ごもって
虹色の卵を産んだ

虹色の卵
あまりに陽射しを
反射して
あまりにも眩しくて

人間は思わず
目を背け

卵はその隙に転げ落ち
雲に当たって砕け散る

手の中から転がる「種」

人間の歌で
目を覚まし
芽吹いだ大地が広がって

紡がれるのは
始まりの歌

「虚ろ」―
それはこの世界、祇沙に突然起きた
森の中心に拡大している現象だ。

原因はおろか、その実態もまだ解明されていない。
ただわかっていることは―
僕達人間は「虚ろ」に冒されたものには
触れることすらかなわないということだ。

触れれば、鋭い刃で切り裂かれたような傷を負う。
「虚ろ」は植物も動物も、
この世界のありとあらゆるものを侵食する。
だけど、外観からは判断することができない。

つまり、普段口にしていた果実を手にした瞬間、
手が血だらけになっている……ということも
在り得るのだ。
森は飛び回っているウサギや鳥達も
すでに冒されている場合がある。
森の恩恵を受けて生活する僕たち人間に
とって、これは深刻な死活問題と言えよう。

「虚ろ」の進行は
誰にも止められない。
人間はただ
日々を脅えて暮らすしかない。

感情
酷く　重くて　冷たい　
流れ込んでくる。
「黒き耳、黒き尾……
そして黒き痣持つものが現れしとき、
世界に禍が降り注ぐ－」

2009-04-06T16:35:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMwfmPxee_w&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDjK1t-7LQ4

you will never call it;

2009-03-30T14:31:00.002+08:00

hai.
so long nv post le.
no update.
headache these few days. lol.
now fnn.
hai.
giving up on all e subjects le.
dun care le hai.
saying bye.

super sad.

2009-03-22T17:22:00.003+08:00

hai.
went to send my phone to repair just now.
went to simei SE shop.
hai.
very sad.
not gonna live without my phone T.T
but the person who serviced me was cute la.
that person talk so soft i cannot hear T.T
sned my phone for repair but gimme back my back cover T.T so blur.
\lol.
came back wanted to use my sis phone but got lock
fuck seh she dunno oso T.T
hai
crying now
no phone to use

Zero & One;

2009-03-20T21:04:00.003+08:00

hai.
life very cacat now.
dun wanna take Os le.
giving up on almost everything.
i feel like a stupid idiot every time i stand beside ya'll.
every one is like advancing then i blur blur sit at one corner.
fucking sad la.
i feel so crap inside.
lol.

2009-03-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

hai. now finishing up research for coursework.
lol so irritating.
got scolded for my results.
i screwed up. BIG DEAL.
not like i ALWAYS can live up to my expectations.
i wanna try tasting defeat. isn't it possible?
thanks for saying what u think is happening to me.
100% different from what u say, the truth.
lol.
only make me irritated.
that's y i dun feel the need love u ppl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY 媽! [o.o so colorful]
one year older le, so dun be so evil k! kharma is faster than age!
u might get retribution even b4 u shoot ur words!
lol hehe still, love ya! hehe.
wondering whether my present (de-stressing aromatherapy stuffies) will really work.
dun eat them ar!
hehe.
hope u like the arrangements today!

tag.

2009-03-14T13:33:00.003+08:00

here comes a candle to light you to bed,
here comes a chopper to chop of your head,
chip chop chip chop - the last man's dead.
walk along the corridor,
armor's metal twist and crack.
eyes from portraits peek and blink.
around the table rumbles stomachs,
upon served with dinner lips crazily smack.
now, for the long awaited dinner,
whose head shall i have?

別に構わないけど、だから、知りたくない。

2009-03-14T12:56:00.002+08:00

hai. so tired. got gastric.
trying to stay alive.
mrs ng reads! no T.T
cannot blame her le lols hehe.
pain pain pain PAIN.
seriously i dunno anything k.
dun force me to say something i dun even wanna care abt.
its all so unbecoming.

このパラーは得意にあいつに知りさせないの為。
本当にしらない、知りたくない、思い出さない。
だから無理にするしないでくれ。
あんたの首を締めてだやね。

intertwine;

2009-03-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

today was shitty.
in the morn was sucky.
i went to scl very moody cos my earpice DIED. AGAIN. and AGAIN.
then went to PA room to emo for a while.
emo-ed with grace. we 2 were like whining.
then went out sat in the hall moody.
then scolded mrs ng. hai.
then rest of the lessons SUPER MOODY.
sry to e ppl who i scolded.
lol.
but slowly getting un-emo cos the weather in the afternoon was crappy.
after scl went out with danah, fina, heni n wilson.
tks for cheering me up tho.
hai.
come home still moody.
2moro too i guess.

chicken PAU(:

2009-03-07T12:41:00.002+08:00

lol now kena fnn. PAU PAU PAU!!
she's an ex-PE teacher T.T
lol who believe hehe
ask her give milo she want give coffee o.o wtf hehe
very tired
later got maths somemore hai

spice.

2009-03-06T16:59:00.002+08:00

now doing coursework.
hai 2moro oso
kena tortured hehe
making her jealous by flaunting our high metabolism hehe
hai
eat alot 2day
pok le pok le :C

cookies :D

2009-03-05T15:39:00.001+08:00

now in the kitchen room ><
doing coursework T.T okok
2moro oso wahhhhhhhh
being tortured
dammit she like to run arnd n hit khoi T.T
sitting on e floor and suffocating
then fina n danah have free day
hai
better finish it la...
dammit shit crap lols

depair;

2009-03-02T14:53:00.002+08:00

hi.
guess what? it's that time of the week again.
the day of isolation, torture, ever-fading demeanor, demoralization, cursing and swearing(:
very tired + moody
then see her face == damn.
hai. carrying on with e damn coursework.
want to run sia.

even so, cry.

2009-02-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

lately very moodless la.
got scolded alot.
fuck seh.
then got humiliated from oral.
geez. it not my fault im like dat in reading.
im shy k!!
><
got back 2 common test le
failed both terribly(eng & poa).
then ppl look at me with THOSE kinda faces.
shit them la.
so what. i din say my eng was FREAKING GOOD anyways.
and i din say i wanna live up to yer expectations.
shoo.
wantto cheer me up instead i punch yer face sia.
slack seh.
dun care la.
motivation dunno take plane go holiday le.
i noe i will fail more.
gave up on fnn.
ss essay crapped it.
lol.
chinese sian.
dammmmm.
coursework anotehr thing.
duwan get A1 le. work my butt off for nth.
100% my future will have nth to do with POA n fnn.
lol.
study so hard for nth de.
slap the face man.
these days i wanna skip scl sia.
so irritating.
then theres this fucking irritating mosquito at night
i sleep then bzz here bzz there
slap it's face
(actually did.)
then it went down like a hijacked helicopter.
lol got sound effect de.
dammit no mood le.

unrelentless;

2009-02-20T18:46:00.001+08:00

-a stray dog-.

face the iron-clad maiden
cleaved under the bladed moon
how beautiful it was, lily's blood.

in the "depths" of this town
the underground lives
[feed the dead dog with another's soul]
bend by the knees
bow by the head
beg with the words
and still not be forgiven.

enough is enough;

2009-02-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

shall blog abt this few days.
unlucky TOO.
last week had the course then when i came back to cls\
my maths textbook gone T.T
WHICH FUCKING ASSHOLE STOLE IT?
UR GONNA GET IT MAN.
GONNA TWIST UR ARMS AND LEGS N TIE EM INTO A KNOT.
THEN I WILL BARBECUE U ON A STICK.
ASS.
then have to go arnd asking to borrow textbook.
hai.
friday received chocs(:
hehe tks those who gave me chocs(:
sat went to afina party with danah, jackson n kaiyiu
[still cannot figure out y jackson tagged along o.o]
met them at 6,
then went ntuc to buy fina's gifts
i got Merci chocs for her(: then danah got chocs too(:
but KY n Jcky din -,-
ok..
stayed till 9+ then went to find heni
then shop shop awhile then went back
was kinda tired
cos was walking around with abrasion there...
lols pain sia
ate ate abit bloody chicken T.T
then stayed till 1130+
sud went hme first cos she had curfew
mummy wasnt feeling top notch so she, daddy n ron went home
u guys ar i asked if u guys had enuf $ or not then u ppl said yea
then now u guys quarrel over the amount
abit to kiam siap le rite? so dun fight k, always love each other(:
then fina and her frens went hme too
left us and two other ppl
then we kept the stuff and took taxi hme
hai sunday had tuition with charlotte, wenlong n suhaila
kinda productive tho kekeke
hai nth more le

lacrimosa.

2009-02-16T17:18:00.002+08:00

Within the darkness, despair and the future are intimate with each other
The moonlight, which exposes sadness, coldly illuminated them
By the secret sign that you gave me
I go through the silence of the pale night
Lacrimosa
It shattered in the distance and vanished
I want to love the glaringly bright world once more
Hiding my dream in my eyes
Until tears fall on my sullied heart.

weep;

2009-02-16T14:06:00.001+08:00

guess what? :D
it's that time of the week again(:
suffering every monday
its a wonder i nv die(:
kekeke
nearly slap her face seh hehe
now busy chatting
cos lazy to do C:
be home late i guess today :(

dance on corpses.

2009-02-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

last few days were fun. hehe.
had preparation course
was damn fun tho hehe
altho slept XD
kekeke
first day everyone (4ea 4eb 5n1 5n2) squeezed in ava
fucking chaotic
stupid la change here change there
hit my wound sia super pain
but overall coach elgin was fun
exercise exercise kekeke
last 2 days were in 5n1 cls
4ea n eb stuck together
lol
hehe was fun la

carnage.

2009-02-11T22:41:00.002+08:00

the man who was obsessed with demons.
the woman who was abandoned by angels.
how beautiful it was, lily's blood.
now, the curtain of madness is opening.

strength;

2009-02-09T23:43:00.002+08:00

there was this dream,
this fleeting dream.
[i can't do it with your help.
not with her help.
not with his help.
not with their help.]
i looked down,
and saw my hands smeared in blood.
fresh, running crystal-red blood.
in this insanity
destroy me,
crush my heart,
trample my thoughts,
and before i turn away,
let me once more dance in it.

underlying reasons;

2009-02-09T14:17:00.002+08:00

now in lab ==
freaking coursework o.o
every monday have to suffer
if i had known i would've quit T.T
lol
arm tearing off...
I WANT TO CRYYYYYYYYYYY><
eyes are dry so i guess unable to T.T
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
want to throw food at her. jeez. hehe.

2009-02-08T16:14:00.002+08:00

the seed, the seed.
the seed of paradise.
fly to your loved one.
east, west. north, south.
dark anti-stem cells or dark caves?
or at the furthest window back?
or THAT seat?
...---------------
that doll, that doll.
the doll of demise.
bury your close ones.
up, down. left, right.
broken hinges or blended screams?
or the rotten and dismembered face?
or THE knife?

---------------

transformation.

2009-02-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

bleaHz.

damn.
hurt.
knee.

damn that kid. that tiny devil.
super big bruise on my knee.
if i see ya again kid imma tear off yer limbs.
this afternoon went for maths cls
then mr tan scolded the whole cls
cos we were playing arnd in his absence
then kena scolding like hell la.
after that norm l.e.
was limping home.
pathetic.

[charchar & ah long tutor me maths!! ah long i tutor u english in exchange ><]

2009-02-06T22:13:00.001+08:00

this is the funny thing that happened in maths lesson.
mr tan wasnt there,
so shaun was bored n took desi's skirt and tried on.
金剛芭比!!!
somma the poses where gorilla like.
too disgusting to put on le.
XD

let's not forget the zombies.

2009-02-06T17:11:00.002+08:00

ok .
today was a weird day.
normal scl lesson.
PE ms chan tortured us ==
ms nur told ms chan to make us run 6 rounds T.T
damn broken cos im old ><
maths class did something funny XD
later i shall post it lol
then chem cls took over ss cos ms kong wasnt there
ms nur got serious with us but still we all laughed lol
after scl stayed in PA room gossip with holly jialat bennie and razelyn( i tin its spelled this way)
jialat n bennie were frenchin infronta us! shoo! lol jkjk hehe
then danah popped outta nowhere ><
then 215 went to find sud n waited for ron
ate ate ate n drank drank drank n talked talked talked
after that played at the turn trun thing
fucking kid came and turned us arnd
everyone got off but i was still on it
then he turned the thing faster
till i fell off and hit my butt n head
fucking kid din listen to us we screamed STOP!
and he stil fucking accelerated.
n broke my nail. wa lao pain sia.
hope he dies of a freak accident.

just feed me food.

2009-02-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

today is a normal day, except for a no. of test T.T
first there was the english test
then we had poa test then chi T.T
damn la
i hate summary.
poa as usual culdn balance
chi was like crap ><
hai everyday is kinda boring tho
so thats all le

高気圧ーーーではない.

2009-02-02T18:07:00.004+08:00

at home le.
X.X dated the toilet a few times ..
damn gastric.
wen i need it it doesn come
wen i duneed den come T.T
wad seh.
lol.
seriously la.
cannot catch up with maths and ss.
essay havn write.
gonna die.
maths lost le.
FNN. damn. I HATe COURSEWORK.
left one sub. POA. drop or not?
still deciding.
but must write letter to VP.
o.o
damn.

"ahhhh."

2009-02-02T14:49:00.002+08:00

now in scl lab1.
doing the effing coursework.
damn headache and gastric.
freeeeaaaaak.
those of you doing fnn, <({[ BEWARE!!!]})>
damn. ass la.
everyone is swearing around o.o now they talking abt MCD ==
lol

2009-01-27T11:57:00.001+08:00

dammit.
very long nv post le.
recent activities pls go my links C:

2009-01-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

all these days were boring so din post.
normal scl days.
caught for hair blah blah.
ystrdy after seeing the o lvl release fucking worried for daddy T.T
after that was damn hungry so went with des shana n fina to mcD
then went back to scl
cos faris liwei danah joni xtine weijian n nigel were waiting
sry guys i din noe o.o
then went to east coast
[emo on the bus cos my mood was killed by something.]\
then crap crap arnd to big splash there
then crap at carl's jr till 7+ then took taxi hme
then today.
fucking weird.
i reached scl as my usual timing but then they said frm today onwards after 720 or 725
they will close the gate le ==
so in the end i ended up late for scl ==
can't blame me i have insomnia ==
then those 2nd time or more late comers [me included. damn.] sat outside hall
for 2hrs and they called our parents ==
after that nrom scl le ==
*saw bus 14 pervert o.o*

-ms nur maybe reading this!! o.o shocking. mr tan noes jan's blog o.o scary.-
horrible man. teachers noe our bloggie!

2009-01-03T20:56:00.004+08:00

1st jan.
bah. a boring day. a difference at all. still same as 2008.
no one's changed. lest they really resolved to.
then i'll be excited to see what kinda changes are there. and if they work at all.
2nd jan.
scl started. but din go. had tummy prob.
boring day as usual.
today.
another resultless day.

2008-12-31T18:34:00.002+08:00

so. the last day of 2008.
25th dec. : merry christmas.
other days were boring, stayed at home.
today was supposed to go out with ron,sud,danah,daddy n mummy to watch twilight
but stomachache n not in the mood to go out, so sry.
there goes my stomach again. sheesh.

To the stars that played with the darkness
I sang of love and burned up completely

Lighting the punishment
Scars from claws draw close to the daisy’s dream

Passed from lips to lips
Where’s that warmth going?
Even though it has no place to go

If I’m not with you, I can’t be satisfied
I wouldn’t be able to forgive you if it wasn’t me
So I stood up on my feet
And shuddered

If I get kept with you until death, then I’ll be saved
But how splendid, I’m unlocked
And I’m just like
A crazy little bird that wants the birdcage

Flowers embraced lies

Touch and see through me with cold fingers
But don’t dirty me

If I look back, I’m on a road of thorns
That a single feather burnt onto

If it’s an illusion, then I’ll love the illusion
And I can even throw it away tomorrow
Tell me a reason to fear it

If you were gone, then I wouldn’t be able to live
I chased after the dying night
Because I wanted to let you take
Everything of mine into your arms

But I’m surrounded by silence
In the boisterous room
My regulated, lowly heartbeats
Are counting Heaven’s punishments; I plugged my ears

If I’m not with you, I can’t be satisfied
I wouldn’t be able to forgive you if it wasn’t me
So I stood up on my feet
And shuddered

If I get kept with you until death, then I’ll be saved
But how splendid, I’m unlocked
And I’m just like
A crazy little bird that wants the birdcage

Flowers embraced lies

2008-12-22T23:46:00.006+08:00

22nd December: HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENLONG & YINCHIA !!
so went out with charlotte ahlong n ruiyang today to celebrate ahlong birthday
met them at 130 at pasir ris mrt
supposed to be at 1 but took 12 reached at 130
waited for a while until VIP appear
then walked to ehub
bought tics for YES MAN!
show was 320 so played in the arcade
then watched the show
after that wanted to bowl but din
played at arcade somemore again until 5+ ruiyang mom called then father called
[father sounded fierce call me still can so fierce]
then played somemore
saw kaiyiu there
then went to comics connection
then char father n shawn came
so went to eat dinner
then lingered at comics connection somemore made noise there
then char father send our dear ahlong home first then sent me home
[sry ahlong din get u a present ==]
______________________________________________________________________
had a dream that morn
abt my two dears (not in ccss)
the 3 of us are kinda close i reckon
its been a long time since i had a dream fraught with these much emotion.
the 3 of us were eating at some cafeteria
we were headed to the toilet
then i saw a glimpse of her holding his hand
then he went to the toilet
so i asked her "really?"
she nodded her head
wen he came out
they then told me they officially are
i was taken aback
i was angry at the fact that
they told me it was for some time already
and they din tell me to begin with
at first wen she told me i felt betrayed but somewhat content
so i went back first
then i woke up feeling kinda jumbled. complicated, actually.
thus feeling messed.
maybe it will come true, and i hope it does if it can.

"until someone deserves it, it will not happen."

2008-12-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

[ We may not be tough enough to live on truth alone,
But you know, we don't need to be.]

______________________________________________________________________
ok starting on a late post.
yesterday.
went to eat in the morn,
arnd 1215 rushed off to take bus to CV
but then the bus i took back to lavender mrt went another direction
so in the end walked to the bus stop and reached there arnd 1238.
hai.
then took bus 2 to CV,
and reached at 1245
(1hr+ o.o||| my butt cramped)
reached there saw danah daddy n jacky
waited for arnd 5 mins chrstin n WJ arrived
then took ferry to Pulau Ubin
on the way there was fun the boat was rocking lik hell and water kept sploshing in huge strong winds o.o
then reach PU n set off to rent bikes
reached WJ's auntie's bike rental store n then sat a bit rest rest
daddy got so engrossed by the ai yoyo show
then had to pull him out
got our bikes n set off
the range was damn exciting bumps here and there and turns here n there
then parked our bikes and walked to chek jawa ( which din even looked half a damn bit like chek jawa in the tv)
walked a detour then saw a DAMN FUCKING huge crab
daddy battled it but daddy lost (awwwww)
then walked to a place with mini crabs waving their propped out pincers from in the grnd ==
caught some and let them go == they died anyways hai
(mummy i noe wad u r thinking now so don't k u evil woman stop laughing)
then went up a tower
the scenery was like WOAH
nice
then we sat at one corner n laughed at how it only carries 20 ppl (maybe more)
then talked abt WANG JIA NI (urgh) and how she would make the tower crumble o.o
laughed and laughed
THEN ONE BY ONE PPL CAME UP O.O
12...14...18...19...
then we quickly grabbed our stuff and scoot down
cos "no guarantee"
it was freaky the tower was mildly shaking o.o
then went back to bikes
and continued our bumpy trail
then went back to return n took boat back at arnd 630
had dinner there ate 蚵煎　wah
damn fucking sick of it le felt like puking
-,-
then went home thats it lo.

2008-12-20T23:09:00.003+08:00

The butterfly kills.
castles built, crumbles to dust.
pictures drawn, fading apart.
life is dictated, price payed dearly.
memories engraved, locked far back.
sceneries painted, corrupted and rot.

close your eyes, but let your mind open wide.

breath meant to hide words,
coldness meant to hunger for warmth,
pale winds brushing against the chime,
ringing only at the 25th hour.

2008-12-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

The Pied Piper of Hamelin;

Rats! They fought the dogs and killed the cats,
And bit the babies in the cradles,
And ate the cheeses out of the vats,
And licked the soup from the cooks' own ladles,
Split open the kegs of salted sprats,
Made nests inside men's Sunday hats,
And even spoiled the women's chats,
By drowning their speaking
With shrieking and squeaking
In fifty different sharps and flats.

“When, lo, as they reached the mountain's side,
A wondrous portal opened wide,
As if a cavern was suddenly hollowed;
And the Piper advanced and the children followed,
And when all were in to the very last,
The door in the mountain-side shut fast.”

2008-12-17T23:43:00.001+08:00

I'm Falling Down Into My Shadow
Holding my breath
I'm waiting on a Deadly Night

Don't Scary, because the pumpkin coach
That the witch drew
Can be seen in your eyes

See You In Your Dreams
Yeah Baby, even if it's a scary dream

Fairy Blue
For your sake, I smashed the stars
And decorated the
Black Paper Moon
If you'd believe in me!
When You're Lost "Here"
I am... "Forever" With Your Soul

If you look up, like the shining moon

Letters emerge on the card
That dropped the sweet, crimson jam

Your Destiny, because if you wish for it
You can seize
Any sort of world in your hands

Don't get confused
No one can destroy it

Fairy Blue
The proof of living that you gave me
Is the "eternity" known as our bond
If you'd shout for me
I Will Find You My Dear!
No matter where you are
Break the spell bound to us

There are times when I can't believe in anyone
And become subservient
Nevertheless, your words
Are echoing in my chest at anytime

Fairy Blue
For your sake, I smashed the stars
And decorated the "sign"
When you'd lose sight of your dreams and be confused
I'd like you to look up

Fairy Blue
The proof of living that you gave me
Is the "trust" known as our bond
You're not alone
When You're Lost "Here"
I am... "Forever" With Your Soul

I can make my way to you, if you believe in me

2008-12-17T22:20:00.001+08:00

red and black, venom lack.
red and yellow, can kill a fellow.

2008-12-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

16TH DECEMBER:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FARIS. hehe
went out at 445,
but got real late cps bus took damn long to arrive.
then reached bedok inter n met with ron at 510 ==
then went to mrt
ron din noe danah was coming too cos i told him she was goin thailand (which her mom canceled)
then surprised him hehe
reached suntec went to find joni n christine n WJ
then sat n joked
waited for the grand arrival of the KING
[daddy scolded us for cheating his feeling cos we told him we not free *it worked YES* he's kinda gullible]
then ate ate alot man
the table was full and messy
after desert [ice cream n mummy-made lemon sorbet]
pizza huttie ppl played happy birthday song and 端 the cake out hehe
was damn sweet so din eat much [sry daddy ><] then walked walked abit then ya done sent daddy home then sent mummy home then went home. everyone got him gifts!! danah got: a spiderman toothbrush + gatsby deodorant + kodomo toothpaste + neutrogena cream hehe christine n WJ got: [poisonous] siew mai *cos after danah ate it she got stomachache hehe joni got: wwf game *he got it for free WTF >mummy got: a black wallet in a big box in which i scolded her to get and she couldnt reach for it hehe
i got: 2 naruto head band pieces hehe he wanted it so bad [DADDY! wear it n take pics!!] hehe

2008-12-13T15:11:00.006+08:00

Regulations of this quiz is:- People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by them- Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.- These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.- Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by: mummy liwei

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1) i don't really know what to wish for anymore.
2)
3)

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
yes, but everything about me is a facade.

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
for someone without any destination, nope.

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
yes by any reason possible.

Q: Do you belief in Love?
when it comes, i'll know.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i'd rather give up than self-torture if nothing comes out of it.

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
what's the use anymore?

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
you bet.

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
yes.

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
most definitely.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
1) CF
2) Friends.
3) them.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
yes.

Q: Are you happy with your life?For now?
for now? intriguing. i don't really care if i'm happy.

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
i would.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
1) lovely
2) Trustworthy
3) Sincere.

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
if conditions and circumstances allow.

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
1) personality
2) features
3) ?

Q: If your lover betrayed you (AGAIN), what will be your reaction?
to heck with that person.

Tagging:
1) danah
2) heni
3) holly
4) benson
5) ern

2008-12-11T13:11:00.001+08:00

Not that I much cared any longer whether I lived or died in the end.
I could wonder all I wanted, but how could I ever really know?

2008-12-10T18:17:00.002+08:00

An illusionary full moon; a cruel sun
The never-ending lunar eclipse of the Grand Guignol
The Devil and his angels hold hands and dance
An awakening Masquerade
Then everyone shivers in solitude as they remember their fears

A brilliant Paradise is a dictator's garden
Time of 1001 nights in the dark capital
In this grotesque city, while asleep you are a queen
Beautiful smile, wash away my sin

The sleeping lion has awakened,
pursuing the dream not seen through
The sleepless village is eternally pursuing
the tomorrow without a tomorrow
Alone I open my eyes this night

Forever within the darkness
Like crimson, swaying embers
Even in armor-clad hearts
Smouldering thoughts do not go out

2008-12-09T18:32:00.002+08:00

PAPERMOON

I'm Falling Down Into My Shadow
息を潜めて待っている　Deadly Night
Don't scary 魔女が描いたカボチャの馬車も
その眼に映せるから

See you in your dreams Yeah Baby
怖い夢だとしても

Fairy Blue　君のために星を砕き
飾り付けた Black Paper Moon
信じてくれたなら When you're "lost" "here" I am
Forever with your soul
見上げれば輝く月のように

甘い深紅のジャムも
落としたカードに　浮かび上がる文字
Your Destiny 君が望めばどんな世界も
その手に掴めるから

惑わされないで
誰にも壊せない

Fairy Blue　君がくれた生きる証絆という永遠
叫んでくれたなら I will find you ,My dear?
何処にいても　
絡みつく呪縛を解き放って

誰も信じられなくて卑屈になるときもある
それでも君の言葉はいつでも胸に響いてる

Faily Blue 君のために星を砕き飾り付けた目印
夢を見失って迷った時
見上げて欲しい

Faily Blue 君がくれた生きる証絆という信頼

君は一人じゃない
When you're "ｌost" "here" I am
Forever with your soul
辿り着ける君が信じるなら

2008-12-07T20:36:00.006+08:00

update on yesterday.
hehe
woke up at 751 cos can't slp [daddy msg me to ask wad to wear slippers or shoes -,-]
then got ready
left hse at 715
walk walk to 巴剎 to buy candy cos mummy msg me meet her at 835 at lions home the busstop -,-
then sit there wait wait for daddy mummy
took 12 [mummy said 15 mins heh it took 30+mins lol]
then reached the wrong place
then took bus to inter then saw joni like one statue down there but no cup to collect money
then went to wait for christine n WJ
then went for breakfast
then went to escape to find danah hehe
FIRST OFF WAS THE HAUNTED HOUSE! damn cool the made it permanent!
yay it wasnt scary but fun hehe
then play play go cart-my first time, it was fun hehe i coud drive!
then VIKING lik 5-6 times hehe
the wet and wild was fun - they caught our faces wen we went down the slide! so unglam!
got damn wet cos sit behind danah was dry ==
me n daddy got soaked
the play play somemore went back to gocart sat for 1hr ><
but was worth it my second time driving hehe drifted then knocked the rail ==
damn christine and weijian! our cart was uber slow!
then went walk walk at ehub then went home lol
sent daddy to scl bus stop then walked back hme damn tired hehe

happy birthday jackson! [ystrdy]

2008-12-03T23:09:00.001+08:00

you. never give me false hope or i'll slap the hell outta you.

2008-12-02T17:49:00.003+08:00

tagged by daddy to do hehe

1.who's the person who tagged you?
my daddy, faris.

2.relationship between u n him?
my daddy.

3.5 impressions of him?
joker,funny,caring,funny n joker hehe

4.if he becomes your enemy, you will
slap him of coz he will nv becom an enemy hehe

5.what will you say to the person u like very much?
etto...*hard blush*...

6.a characteristic i like abt myself:
my ruthlessness.

7.a characteristic i hate abt myself:
i boast alot last time lucky im changing it.

8.for the person u hate, you say?
eat shit u mofo.

9.what do people feel abt u:
fear for those who i am not that close with, and idk?

10.your crush:
*red hot blush*

11.most ideal person u wanna be?
hehe..

12.pass this to 10 ppl
1 daddy
2 mummy
3 danah
4 heni
5 grace
6 bennie
7 jialat
8jem
9ruwei
10 holly

13.if 5&7 were together?
nahh.

14.who does 5 like?
she has a bf idk e name hehe

15.what color does 9 like?
i nv asked o.o

16.say something to 8:
hello.

17.who is 2?
my mummy.

18.talk about 3
hehe loves screaming hahas and craves for cheesecake

19.whos 10's bestfren?
ruwei hehe

20.who is the sexiest among all 10
WHAT KINDA QUESTION IS THIS?!

21.what color does 4 like?
black&red 100%!!!

22.is 4 single?
she doesnt say o.o

23.your relationship with one?
IMMA BASH THE PERSON WHO SET ALL THESE QSTNS I SAID IT IN THE BEGINNING

24.are 5&6 best frens?
i dun see them talking b4 o.o

25.9's surname?
kee i just found out o.o

26.7's nicky?
jarah aka. JIALAT

27.say something to 4:
let's dye hair! oh wait we did le.

28.say something to help 10?
ur 15le! no more whining kks!!! hehe

29.who does 1 admire?
2 ofcoz he dare cheat he die a horrible death.

30.where does 1 live?
marine parade take 13 can le

31.10 of them know who u like?
nope (:

32.say something to 6 when you see him?
benson! hehe u want lessons?

33.10's spouse?
hmmm maybe f*** hehe we matched them together yesterday le hehe

2008-12-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

fairy blue, for you i'll smash the stars and decorate the black papermoon, because i shouted out to you.

2008-12-01T13:17:00.002+08:00

hehe happy birthday ruwei hehe
dun childish anymore ah
dun scare ppl with e jacket k
AND DUN TAKE OUT UR SHOES hehe

now at SP
having some weird course rite now
slept for idk how long hehe
okok time to go
ppl staring at me posting o.o

2008-11-30T12:12:00.003+08:00

post pics!

i learned something of value at 1212pm today:
CLEAR YOUR NOSE WHEN YOU NEED TO OR THINGS WILL FALL OUT IN AN AVALANCHE.

2008-11-28T15:16:00.007+08:00

ok shall now talk abt chalet:

woke up at 9, went to scl, met danah n joni, finished up our sdma(LIKE ITS ABT TIME)
hehe
then took 10 with joni to his hse to take things, (shall not mention wad)
then took 21 to pasir ris
met daddy mummy ronny at kfc
[sry we were late! cos our teacher had stuff to do, then we went joni hse T.T]
then took 403 to chalet/bungalow
went in, everyone rushed up down left right EVERYWHERE!
booked our rooms,
went down to watch BALLS-of-fury!
funny seh
[stinkin ronny's feet -,-]
waited for food, food came, so did ppl,
ran out with danah bare-footed to welcome ppl from e bus stop
looked lik we were chasing e bus -,-
i saw e bus uncles' faces, lik all very scared
then bbqed food
[sry if the chicken wings were partially uncooked. i do take fnn, but i nv said i was a good cook.]
then drank unw, got lil drunk from brandy(3cups)
then stopped for a while
cos stomach bloating
then went to roof
cos daddy mummy there
then w**e got somewhat drunk
then went fucking high with danah
-shall not say what happend, only those who were there shall know and thats it-
then din slp the whole night
cleaning up after their messes
back sprained and leg cramp
woke daddy mummy ronny up at 530
watch sunset but they tired
they see i nv slp so let me slp in till 630
woke up, send danah to bus stop
den we pack up went to eat
STOMACH FUCKING PAIN FUCKING GASTRIC
ate then went home
feet damn dirty ==

-to someone special (too C:) -->
sorry if we didn't seem like we didn't care enough,
but we do C: we love u in fact, coz u r special.
u see, sometimes without u with us when we go out,
everyone seems bored,
so u cheer us up! *big smile*
never ever think u r worthless, becoz u brighten us up, and that
certainly means alot in our hearts <: it's good that u actually vented out ur frustrations, now ur feeling better i guess hehe mummy may seem ruthless, but she cares (coz that time she seemed mean) cry it out, let it out, and after that, ur vision will be brighter! hehe -follow up frm daddy's post C:-

2008-11-28T11:58:00.004+08:00

hmmm just woke up
hungry
these few days lazy update anything ==
sry hehe
go other ppl blog to see k?
like mummy, daddy, mei and others hehe mayb they got update
HEHE lol i just hit my head.

2008-11-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

That itself was like something out of a cheap TV drama.

2008-11-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

i saw a dead animal.
he should have come to this world to scatter his guts.
it would die in this way.
even if it was white, it would appear black.

2008-11-20T14:03:00.004+08:00

hai bored right now ==
dunno wad to do at hme...
din go for cca trip
din feel lik goin cos mood kena destroyed by this pathetic family.
fuck it all.
sry to those who tried their best to goad me to go for e trip
very sry
hav fun k!
and tell me everything that happened during the trip k
eating rite now
dunno wad im eating o.o

2008-11-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

桜の花は何時開く when will the cherry blossom flower open
哀れ村人は不安に the villagers in despair are feeling uneasy
桜の花は何時踊る when will the cherry blossom flower dance
泣いてた子は悩んでいる the crying kid is in a stressful state
桜の花は何時朽ちる when will the cherry blossom flower wilt
死んでいた神は昇るころ the dead god is resurrecting
桜の花は何時憎み when will the cherry blossom flower grudge
あの景色は今消えゆく. that view is now disappearing.

2008-11-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

逢うことも
なみだに浮かぶ我がし体には
死なぬ薬も何にかはせむ

わがその力は龍あらば
ふと射殺して
首の玉は取りてむ

まことかと
聞きて見つれば言の葉と
飾れる玉の
枝にぞありける

限りなき
思いに焼けぬ皮衣
袂かはきて
けよこそは着め
なごりなく
燃ゆと知りぜば皮衣
思いの外に
置きて見ましと

牛と経て立ち寄らぬ住の江の
まつかひなしと聞くはまことか

おく露の光とだにぞ宿さまし
とぐら山にて何もとめけむ

今とて
天の羽衣着るをりぞ
君をあはれと思ひいでける

2008-11-13T15:35:00.001+08:00

behind the steps i took, lie countless sacrifices and sins piling up.
i will not stop, and neither will i regret the moves that has allowed me to advance.

2008-11-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

The curtains fall,
and so ends the game of deception as well.

[every time you appear, you make me go gaga
and thats what makes me hate about you the most.]

2008-11-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

Baby gimme
Cross shaped + Birthday Cake
Celebrate me
Under the Bloody sky
When you can see The Cherry Moon
baby, Come to my room, tonight
I close my eyes
in blue merry go round
Juicy Sweet light shining over me
Let’s get sugar high ! “Baby”
Charming spider’s eyes…
…are watching you all night
Are you ready to say…?
“TRICK OR TREAT ”
I sleep like Dead in Bed
in my Nightmare
reverse of me
Under the Cherry Moon
The Shadow of you is coming, yeah
Baby

2008-11-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR CHAIRWOMAN HoLLY!!

::ur 15 le, so dun whine anymore kk!!:: hehe

woke up at 10, met danah at bedok inter
then took train to dhoby ghaut - plaza sing- there to buy cake
walk up walk down turn here turn there arnd 1hr30min then we found the damn shop -,-
MAN I HATE THAT PLACE
got the oreo cheesecake (cheap!! $28 onli)
wow then took 14 to scl
[HOLLY! u saw!! no fair!]
then celebrated, ate and washed up
then holly n gang went to watch movie but danah heni n i din go
we went cheesecake hunting :D lol
but in the end nv
so walk walk walk to ajisen at pp
then eat lol walk lol talk lol
then go back scl
cos ern n huisi BF(eww) there
then went hme hai

note:
next time hor! we buy cake for smeone hor! dun rush us k! we very kanchiong le!
kanchiong ppl fall down u noe!
we saw 3 of such ppl
then they slip n fall damn humorous XDD

2008-11-08T18:30:00.002+08:00

anyway today woke up at 8 went to scl
saw no one sat there quietly
azhar came to molest me
ran away LOL sry la protection
then saw jw and looked arnd for auntie moimoi then saw benson n jarah come to scl together
then went to lab ern n danah came
went to canteen to greet the 150+ jap students&teachers
ran after the buses -,-
then sat at the canteen to watch the performance
ran arnd taking pictures,
talkin to them
hahas
then sent them arnd the scl
and took lots of photos (actually only 95==)
then ate with them hahas
then they went off at arnd 12 or 1?
then went back to lab and slept while joni+ern+JW dota-ing (very noisy heard their voice and dozed off) then danah was surfing the net and thinking of SDMA
then they woke me up, went to shoot the thing
was damn funny and cute
[under a twig, over a bench n across a bin XD]
then went eat at snowice n the cafe bside lol