this is mine.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

you force me into a spot,
i will struggle.
why the fucking hell should i tell you
when this thing of mine
is mine alone
you can call me selfish, self-centered
forget it im not spilling.
you're just wasting your breath.
you think you have experience
just because you are an adult
you think i cannot handle it alone just because imma kid
you think im not mature enough to settle what im going through
im telling you
no matter how many times you force me
nothings coming out buster.
i may seem selfish to keep it all alone
coz its something that means alot to me
like fucking hell i'll tell you.
i am going to seem very self-centered saying this:
i know no one will know this feeling.
its because i am confident thats why i say that.
partly also because i have it thats why i make this statement.

as if you can help.

and yes you are correct
part of my moodiness at home is the result
of this family and a religion i don't believe in.
all these crap about me being just a teen and not able to guide myself
from your mouth is just pure bullshit.